Friday, July 09, 2004

The TTC Rollercoaster

My DH and I have been on the TTC Rollercoaster for over a year. We started TTC #2 back in June of 2003. I got pregnant immediately. Too much celebrating on the 4th of July apparently. Our little firecracker baby we called our unborn child. Well atleast until all hell broke loose. We found out on the 10th of September that our baby's heart beat had stopped. I had a D&E 2 days later. The dr. told us it would be best to wait 3 cycles before TTC again to let my uterus recover from all the turmoil. So we did. We couldn't wait to TTC again I mean it only took 6 months to get pregnant with our son Chip, and then it only took a month of trying for our second child (we named our angel Stella Rhiannon which means Star Goddess .. we thought it appropriate for an angel baby) so surely we would be pregnant shortly.

Well here we are 8 cycles later, still waiting on the Fertility Gods to say,
"Hey those people right there deserve to have another child."

My dad (he died in April of 1999.. I know he is in Heaven taking care of my angel baby) used to tell me that times of tragedy and strain are charecter builders.

I have lost my father, 3 grandparents, a great grandparent, and my child all in the last 8 years. Oh yeah and my only remaining grandparent has been diagnosed with lung cancer and has only 3 months to live. Gee do you think I have enough charecter yet???


Anonymous said...

Ok, this is Holly(hollyjollybaby)...I would have to sign up for a blog to just post a regular comment but I couldn't think of anything to blog about at the moment....

I just want you to know that you and Charles are in my thoughts and prayers at all times that you are finally blessed again. Sending you lots of hugs and baby dust! I'm gonna bookmark this so I can keep up with your blog ;)

love ya and keep your chin up hon!


Anonymous said...

Hey Steph its Amanda (Kayla's mommy). I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time. I pray that God will bless you, Charles and Chip with a wonderful baby very soon. Lots of hugs to you!