Skyla's 4 month appt.

It went great :) She weighs 11lbs and is 23 1/2 inches long with her head being 38 1/2 centimeters. She's a little peanut still but I'm not surprised by that. The Dr. was super impressed with how well she was doing with sitting up and stuff. She and I went through the list of stuff they want to see babies doing by 6 months and Skyla is already doing them. She said since Skyla was doing so good with the cereal that we could start veggies whenever we wanted and then fruits just limit it to 1 new food a week. The shots sucked as usual but then she nursed and was fine. She slept the whole way home.

Holding hands  

Chip doing his Elvis impression 

Skyla chewing on her fish teething toy (it vibrates) 

Skyla's Hippie Shirt from Nana 

My New Do 

Did you know? (For those of you who have suffered a miscarriage)

My friend says she knew something was wrong before they found out the baby's heart had stopped. She said deep down she knew something was wrong even though she tried to convince her self everything was okay.

I know alot of my readers have been through one or more miscarriages. Did you know ahead of time something was wrong?

I think I did. For a month before my miscarriage I had dreams of losing the baby or I guess you would call them nightmares. I would wake up in a sweat and be all panic-y (is that even a word?).

It's gone!

My hair that is.


I got tired of 3ft long red hair falling out by the handfulls and being all over the house and the baby and everything so last night it went bye bye. It's not really short, it hits my shoulder in the back and slopes to be a little bit longer in the front and is still long enough to put in a baby ponytail but for me it's short !!! I think it's about 15 or 16" shorter now. When I can I will try to take a pic and post it.

Please say a prayer or send good thoughts for my friend

My dear friend Rina found out yesterday that her baby's heart had stopped beating about a week ago. She was 11wks pregnant. My sweet friend has two beautiful healthy boys, but has for some reason miscarried her last 3 pregnancies in the late 1st trimester or early in the 2nd trimester. I am so devistated for Rina. This baby she lost was conceived via IVF so she went through the ringer to get this baby only to lose yet another little angel. It's killing me knowing how bad she must be hurting right now.
I am so mad and sad that so many of my dear friends have faced loss after loss. I have only (haha only) lost one baby and it was the most agonizingly painful experience of my life, I can't even fathom going through it again and again. I am grieving today, for Rina and all of my other dear friends who have battled through hell and back because of infertility (whether primary or secondary).

Oh and today is the one year anniversary of my granddaddy Calvin's death :( So I am quite down and depressed today. I found out about being pregnant with Skyla a year ago yesterday but by that time my grandfather had already slipped into a coma and he never knew about her.

Happy 28th Birthday to me :)

I swear it doesn't feel possible that I am really 28!!! I stil feel like 21 on the inside!!! I hear that it's pretty common to not "feel" your age.

So readers .. tell me .. how old are you really? and How old do you "feel" on the inside.

Skyla had her first rice cereal today!

And she seemed to like it She will be 16 weeks old on Monday so I figured that was close enough to 4 months for me and she has really been interested in food lately.

I nursed her first then I mixed 1 Tbsp of rice to 2 Tbsp of breastmilk and nuked it real quick and she ate about half of it. The first bite she took she didn't act real impressed with it, but then she started going at it with a gusto.

The best thing of all is after the cereal she nursed again and then fell asleep and slept for 2 straight hours!!! This is the kid who normally naps for only 30-45 minutes at a time!!!

I'm going to give it another try tonight and pray that just maybe it might help her sleep longer at night too.

Lot's of photos today!!! Hope you enjoy :) I am enjoying showing off my babies and my adorable little nephew ! 

Bath time :)  

My teething girl. Her little fist is crammed in her mouth constantly these days. 

Skyla all smiles 

Chip eating (wearing) my brownie batter blizzard 

Another 4th of July pic of Skyla 

The Roses and Balloon Charles had me when I came back from Georgia 

Skyla 4th of July 

So I now have the ability to upload pics with Picasa2 and a program called Hello. So I just uploaded a bunch of pics. Unfortunately it makes a new post with each photo. Not sure if I can fix that .. but I will try. Hope you enjoy the pics from my nephew Evan's 1st Birthday Party! I am going to be uploading more pics of the kids in a bit. 

Chip on the playground next to the picnic area 

Chip chauffering Evan around 

Evan taking his lawn mower for a spin 

Evan and his birthday loot 

Skyla having a conversation with my stepfather 

Evan eating his little piggy cake (this was funny because my brother is a cop) 

My mom, Skyla, Evan, Steve 

Chip and Evan 

Steve (my brother) and Evan 

Sharon (my SIL) with my nephew Evan 

My Nephew's 1st Birthday Cake 

I am so F'ing tired!

BLAH!!! I am so tired. I love my beautiful daughter more than life itself don't get me wrong. But this no sleeping thing is getting OLD!!! She had just started sleeping for longer periods of time and then the Teething Monster decided to show up at our house for an extended visit. Out the door the sleeping went. And ofcourse my little sweetheart will not take a bottle of EBM for nothing from nobody. Nope .. only straight from the tap will do for our little princess :)

I daydream about sleep these days. I can't even remember the last time I got 8 hours of consecutive uninterupted sleep. It was several months before Skyla was born! She will be 15 weeks old on Monday! She's growing up so fast!

Yesterday was the day from H E double Hockey sticks! Ofcourse my body didn't get the memo that you aren't supposed to get a period when breastfeeding round the clock so I am in less than a perky mood. Then the teething Demon rears its head and Skyla proceeds to not nap for crap and proceeds to scream all day, despite the meds for teething and even meds for gas.

That was bad enough but then I had a whiney 3 year old who was tired of listening to sissy scream and didn't understand why mommy had to hold her all day and couldn't play with him.

I love being a mom, I wouldn't trade it for the world, but some days .. it's FREAKING HARD!!!

Thank God for my sweet loving husband who brought me home a huge boquet of yellow and purple mums!