Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Crying my eyes out
It has been an incredibly rough week for my Due in April board. In the last 2 days we have had 3 miscarriages and 2 more mommies are spotting. I am just devistated for these women. These aren't even early miscarriages that are so common .. these women are 10 and 11 weeks along and had seen the heartbeat. These are women who had been told that same stupid statistic that used to reassure me "once you have seen the heartbeat there is only 5% chance of miscarriage". God I hate that statistic. If you think about how many babies are born each year and you figure 5% of that rate .. it's a HIGH #. Believe me I know because I got kicked in the teeth last year by that same statistic. Their miscarriages (and D&Cs) remind me so much of my loss last year and it's so heartbreaking. I wish I could hug each one of them and say something that will make it all better. But I know it will never be better. I've learned that even though you go on, you never get over it. I am praying so hard for the 2 mommies that are spotting that they won't recieve the same news as the other 3 women have recieved this week. Not to mention praying for all the other mommies on my board. I know I am now in the 2nd trimester (which is the "safe zone" haha) but I know in my heart I am still not out of the woods yet. If you are the praying type .. please say a prayer for these poor moms and their new angels.